Times in your life when you've felt the best

When I make a big save on the motorcycle, that always leaves a mark and gives me an afterglow. Mix of adrenaline peak and then its descent, relief, being proud of yourself because Nature and Physics were about to end on top and screwing you real bad, but your reflexes turned the storyline around.

The brain knows that had you not made the save you'd have a good chance of ending up in a hospital bed, significant chance of becoming paralyzed, and non-zero chance of dying on the road like a dog.

The days after are really great, everything is much better. The food tastes better, the sky is bluer, the water is more refreshing etc.

Humans, especially men are made to go out in the wild and put their bodies on the line to face Nature and all the elements that she throws back at them.

When you put your body on the line and you make it back after defeating the elements, that's a feeling that is superior to drugs

Of russian descent and now is the worst time of my life although it wasn’t even easy back then but now is way worse. I got better (smart, fit, educated, healthy) but the world got way worse. Hate, mobbing, injustice everywhere. „Your ancestors are from Russia and you look and speak Russian so you should be ashamed and nice to everybody“. Didn’t experience this stupid crazyness in the past. There is no excuse in being raised in a different country people just want to hate. So yeah compared to that the past was best.

I don’t think this is a thing you can pattern-match for. Too much of happiness, success, etc is luck. Often, I look back and realize a period was a happy time, but I don’t remember feeling particularly happy while it was happening.

Keep working on the projects you want to pursue and learning new things. Try to practice gratitude and be generous when you’re able. The tide and economy do their thing and we all try to do ours.

Now.

I work multiple remote jobs. The money pours in, I don’t need to give a damn about whether my team/employers success or fail (as the money of multiple jobs exceeds any possible raise), and I have shaved decades off my working life because of how young I am.

My life is free from needing to give a crap about anything. Im free from needing to succeed. I’m free from needing to care.

I’m free!!!

Late afternoon, lying on a beach in Baja California, drinking cold beer, after just eating the deep-fried scallops, oysters, etc that I collected free-diving that morning. Part of that has never left me. I just need opportunities like this one to remind me. One needs to remember to remember sometimes.

After exercising really hard and feeling an insane mind-body endorphin rush!