I tended to avoid any math wherever possible because I did not grok it naturally, but when I took calculus last fall, I actually fell in love. However, as stated above, I struggle with basic elements due to my prior avoidance and because this is coming to a head with my struggles with proofs, I would love any resources you all can give me that would help me recalibrate my missing knowledge / practice.
I hope this made sense and thank ya'll in advance.
Another kind of book that might be helpful is the kind written for engineering students in your situation. For example, check out "Engineering Math by Stroud & Booth [0].
[0] https://www.google.com/books/edition/Engineering_Mathematics...