The product excites me. However, there is a problem, I feel inactive.The reasons that makes me feel inactive are: - They don't apply scrum. (They just do dailies and retrospectives, however scope changes during the sprint and we don't make estimation points for our tasks.) - Tasks are just one sentences on our scrum board, no explanation for any task. - Product manager and team generally talk during lunch and breaks and decide what to do and how to do. I can't follow them all the time. etc.
I try to express myself in retrospective meetings however, it feels like I am just the man who criticizes and judges the team. It seems like they feel comfortable about that, but they never apply anything more, it goes how they do before. We don't apply decisions we made in retrospective meetings.So it also effects me mentally. I feel insufficient and can't express myself self-confidently. It effects my personal life very bad. I've been a pessimist.
I don't want to leave my job, because I love the product and the c-level people.So what I supposed to do in a situation like this?
Even if you can only do one retro item every sprint, at the end of a few months you should be more effective and will have proven yourself a team player. Hopefully then you can make suggestions that will not be perceived as critical.